Silence is golden

Oh, I’ve been busy.  Really, it’s been a big year, this 2013.

Hey, a couple of folks on Goodreads have asked me about Atoned to Me (The Billionaire Who…) aka Fuckdoll #7, so I wanted to address that.

I’m still writing that.  I’d like to have it out by Christmas, but I got all my writing deadlines pushed back by our big End Family Move.  It took a few months and half my life is still in boxes, but I’m getting back onto the polo pony now, as it were.

Diary of a Fuckdoll pt 7, The Billionaire Who Atoned to Me is going to be the last publication from A. Violet End.  I’M NOT QUITTING.  I’m just changing my name.  Ready to try rebranding my particular sort of perversion.

If you’re interested in following me on the next leg of my journey, make sure you sign up for my email list, okay?  SIGN UP HERE

For now, if you want to add Fuckdoll 7 to your Goodreads, it’s here, with the beautiful cover: FUCKDOLL 7 ON GOODREADS

Lisa has struggled against Tristan and his controlling ways for too long. With a seemingly endless arsenal of tricks to employ against her, how can she ever break free? Will his oneupmanship ever end?

At the dramatic end of part 6, The Billionaire Who Loaned Me, the stage was set for the final showdown. We now know the secret of why Tristan acts so strangely, and who Lisa really is. But who is this new Tristan, ready and able to help? Can Lisa trust him? And what about her sisters in bondage? Can she help them break free?

Note: there will be comeuppance. There will be a HEA. There will be lots of sex.

Coming this fall: Diary of a Fuckdoll part 7, the final chapter. The Billionaire Who Atoned to Me.

Sorry, I didn’t mean to lie about that “fall” part.  I am enjoying the new home, though.

xoxo,

Your Vi

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Emo Wednesday

Hey, gang.  A quick announcement, then a lengthier post, okay?

First, I’ve gone ahead and posted the title & cover reveal for the final installment of the billionaire series.  It’s here on Goodreads.  Go see and add it to your “to be read” lists, if you’d like.  Those who’ve stuck with the adventure through all six parts so far will be pleased with the direction of part 7, I think.

Okay, now here’s the lengthier post.  I guess actually it is an announcement of sorts, as well.

That book up there^ I listed on Goodreads will be my last.  I will probably do up a bundle of all the Billionaire books together, and take down the series “pieces” when I release the total story together, but it will have no new chapters.  It’ll just be a collection, pieced together so that new readers going forward can see they’ll get the happily ever after they want, even though this story is still not really a romance.  (Lisa does find love, and freedom in the end–I’ll give you that spoiler–but I still maintain this story is pure erotic adventure.  We don’t think of Indiana Jones as a romance, so we should’t think of Fuckdoll that way, either.)

Anyway.  *sigh*  Here’s the thing.  Am I proud of my work?  Yes.  Of course.  But upon months of reflection, I realize that I could have done a better job understanding the market before I released these works.  Not just the Fuckdoll works, but the Grimm & Dirties, too.  As a writer, I’m glad I just had at it–that I felt my way through the forest, so to speak.  I learned what I was comfortable writing about (incest? anal? really? okay…) and what I wanted to write about but just didn’t flow (spanking, m/m, bdsm).  Other things I have wanted to express, such as my near-goddess worship of the female form and my fondness for lesbian love were not surprising when they showed up in my stories.

The thing is, I have written professionally for decades.  I have edited so many works.  But…that work wasn’t sexual in nature.  It also wasn’t romantic.  I didn’t set out to write romance as A. Violet End, but I did set out to explore my boundaries as a writer, when it came to sexual topics.  I feel like I have found those boundaries, and I’ve experienced a taste of what works and what doesn’t.

And I’m not the only person making explorations.  Readers do this, as well, all the time.  My books have sold thousands of copies at this point.  There is a real dichotomy between those who buy a book, and those who leave reviews.  Very, very few of my readers leave reviews.  It is truly disproportionate to the # of sales/downloads–and I know this firsthand because I publish books under another name in a more socially-acceptable genre.  Sometimes I sold more books as Violet End to that other name by a ratio of 20-1 or higher, yet Violet’s books would have zero reviews.  The other name had scads, because nearly every reader left a glowing review of one book in particular (my biggest hit under that name).  I’ve witnessed similar scenarios with other authors who write erotica under one name, other genres as someone else.

Additionally, because I write about noncon and dubcon, there are is a large contingency of readers out there who see me as asking for verbal abuse because they, themselves, were raped.  Instead of dealing with their feelings in a therapeutic or proactive matter, they’ve chosen to look for authors who express their own issues with rape and sexual abuse, and heap abuse upon the books these authors produce.  So…I guess what I’m revealing here is that maybe I write what I write because of my past.  Maybe this is my outlet for that.  I think anyone would understand that.  And I think anyone would understand why other victims of abuse might NOT want to read it.  But I don’t think that contingent has stopped and connected the dots that they are punishing me for their abuse.  It hasn’t happened tons, but it has happened more than once that a group of pals on Goodreads one-stars my books without even reading them, just based on the description.  They see their efforts to 1-star bomb my books as taking down someone who is exploiting sexual abuse, and a message to authors-at-large.  I know because I have tried to apologize to them for hitting their buttons, and have tried to warn new readers about possible triggers.

But, there are more angry readers out there and only one me.  They’re not looking for a writer to meet them halfway, they are just looking for someone to take out their anger on.  To pick on, really.  They’re not really warning anyone off from my books–people who are traumatized by sexual abuse are going to be warned off from the cover, the title, and the book description.  It’s all right there in black & white.  Actually, what their warnings do is shame the readers who do like the books, so they don’t leave reviews and don’t encourage others to try the books.  It creates a herd mentality where other readers pile on with the bad reviews, and before long, a book is sunk.  It doesn’t matter to the one-star brigade that the writer behind the book is working out her own issues and expressing her pain artistically–they see it as someone trying to make a quick buck off of their own pain.  I can’t fight that.  I have tried.  I have fought it with kindness, with reason, by updating my blurbs & marketing, and even by writing a romance with a HEA on demand.  There is nothing more I can do than accept that I didn’t research this market thoroughly enough.  If I had realized how brutal these reviewers can be, I would have gone about the series very differently.

There is really not anything wrong with the Fuckdoll series.  It’s fun to write.  It’s fun to read.  The writing is good.  The story is good.   YES, it has its dark moments, and yes, the precept is dark, but I maintain that it is fantasy, less harmful than most written by Stephen King, for sure.  Definitely has a lower body count than any mystery novel!

I’m going to finish telling the story despite what anyone might think. I like finishing things.

But, as A. Violet End, I don’t see much of a future as a writer.  Amazon has lowered the adult filter on 2/3 of my books, and I don’t want to keep throwing new books out there if they’ll be filtered in such a way.  So far As You Wish remains unfiltered, so I guess I did okay with it.  I’m glad, because I’d like to write more romance in the future.  Just not as Violet.

I am still going to write erotica.  I’ve thought it over and although this will probably never be my career, I do enjoy it.  If you want to be informed when I unveil a new pen name, then please make sure you are on my email list.  You will get updates there for the new pen name, but I must warn you–it will not be fairy tales & billionaires.  I don’t think so, anyway.  I’m not sure.  I have a laundry list of story ideas and it is my plan to see them all to fruition in their own time.  I’ll just have to do it as somebody else.

As It Were…As I Am…As You Wish!

As You Wish, my greatest hit and sole romantic title, is coming off sale soon.  It’s been $.99 for a few days, and will return to $2.99 very soon!  Leap now, little froggies.

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The audiobook just released, and it is just delectable.  Ms. End abhors bragging on her own work, so please dear reader, do note Ms. End is actually bragging on the narrator who auditioned, won the role, and was paid a healthy bounty to produce this audio performance.  The esteemed Ms. Black she is, and she is very, very naughty!  And classy.  Think “a young dowager countess from Downton Abbey,” a dirty Miss Violet, indeed.  You will love her.

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As You Wish audiobook on Amazon | iTunes | Audible

Worth noting: if you’re new to Audible, you can get the audio free with a 30 day trial membership.

I’m pleased to announce that a paperback version of As You Wish is forthcoming, as well.

Sad about the sale ending?  Don’t be.  I’ve launched another super secret summer sale and I’ll be back to post about that later (or you can peek here and see what it is).